And can I just say these last six months have been... trying. It really has felt like an uphill climb to nowhere. I got denied unemployment, I got a part-time job I ended up seriously disliking, I got another part-time job that I loved, but still can't really pay my own bills and therefore have to rely on familial support (which is just annoying. I mean, I'm thankful, but dude, I thought I was an adult now!).
But today, I've decided, will be my hump day. Not only is it Wednesday, but it's also exactly half a year, and I feel like the next six months are going to be an easy ride downhill. I'm at the top of the hill and I can't wait to take the wild ride down.
Leading up to today, I've been a bit grumpy. All the bitterness and anger that had been brewing in me when everything first went down seemed to re-appear out of no where. I thought I had made peace with the situation, but apparently not. It's like I was going through the seven stages of grief all over again: pain & guilt, shock & denial, anger, depression...
I had to do something about it.
So... I wrote a letter. To my old supervisor. I won't share this letter, because it's not exactly the nicest of missives. My pain and anger was poured out onto two and a half pages. It gave me a chance to really reflect and work through everything that happened. And when I was done I hit that final stage: acceptance & hope.
It also worked out nicely that today was Day 1 of my 30-day Pray on Purpose challenge. I've felt pretty purpose-less these past six months not having a real job. And spending time this morning admitting that and praying for my purpose to be revealed was kind of a nice step out of the funk that had been brewing in me.
Yay for hump days!
A Note on Prayer: Since I'm taking on praying intentionally for the next 30 days, I ask you to please join me in lifting up the Australian and Brazilian floodings, and all the people being affected by these disasters. Also pray for Haiti as its marking the one-year anniversary of the earthquake that devastated so many lives.